1.15.2009

6 months

I've had several little sobs about my Grandma this week. I'm reading 'A Tree Grows in Brooklyn' right now and my bookmark is copy of a pencil sketch my Grandma did of the Savior. My aunts made the bookmarks and gave them out at the funeral. I've seen it a hundred times but this particular night as I closed my book, my eye caught her name on the bookmark.
"Leona C. Udall"
And I cried.
It's been almost 6 months since we lost her. I'm starting to forget her voice. I cant readily recall the funny things she'd say or the little dance she'd do when she was happy and being clever.
I do remember her hands.
They look like mine.
What is it about hands that is so significant? My friend lost her mom a few weeks ago and this week she's been thinking about her mom's hands. The way they looked, the way they felt, the service they gave...
Anyway, I'm so grateful for how well I knew my Grandma. I'm grateful for every moment I spent in her home and in her presence. I'm glade we were such good friends. I'm glad she's out of pain. But I miss her. A lot.

8 comments:

Emily Ruth said...

I am so sorry. Rereading those words, they sound hallow. I wish there was a way to hug you through the screen.

Jaime S. said...

i still cry about my grandma. it is funny that you bring up her hands. Have i ever told you that i love your hands. they look service oriented. i was looking at them at are friend's mom's funeral and thinking that. i'm glad you got your grandmas hands.

stephanie said...

i'm glad you have her hands, too. what a nice, physical reminder of a woman who sounds pretty remarkable.

Amanda said...

me too.

Lyndsay said...

I completely understand about the hands. I love my mom's hands. And my Granny's hands were very special to me, too. She played piano, always kept her nails short but painted, and had wonderful veins in her hands (I thought they were wonderful, at least). That is so great that you have your grandmother's hands!

Cara said...

I miss her too.

Lisa said...

That was sweet.......

And I will donate to the above family. THanks for informing. I can't imagine their pain.

Diana said...

Hey Jill! I was sitting and visiting at Dennis' house and saw the same picture up on his wall with your grandmothers name under it. Tuesday night was Stake Enrichment, the whole thing was a slide show with the art of Christ over the years from different artist and how they thought He would look. Some were so different from what we usually see. Your grandma's should be included in the ones where he looks so familiar. I have loved that one from the first time I saw it in her home. I would love a copy of it!